New Year - New Benningings.

Yeah right. So annoyed! I don't really have a particalar reason to be but , I surrpose that I am. Mainly because I write storys. I spend countless hours figging out the plots and characters and when I write Im lost, but im trapped  in my dyslexica. I can't get the story out, people don't understand it and suggest i use spellchecker (if Im lucky enough for someone to even comment) but my spelling is so bad that it doesn't even have a suggestion to wait it may be. Commonly "Hati"? comes up, well vagina I have no idea what a hati is. Wattpad, thats the website I use. Most of my "friends" are on it (but they all talk about me behind my back) I read their *sighs* Ok lets say storys. Im not one to judge though my treasured crimes to grammar and the english lanngague are lucky to get 15 read, whereas there storys get 500-1000 ;(. I just wish SOMEONE would read them. I wrote a new story, Cardicalles, had 15 chapters written, uploaded the first to see how it would get on, left it a day - 2 read (both me). The next day 3 reads, and that was my friend who only commented something about the brand of gutair that was mentioned.

But deep down I really want to be an author.

Happy new year everyone.

I'm not going to any partys mainly because I never get invited to that sort of thing, but also I hate the sort of people that go to partys that are my age. One boy is there and everyone goes balistick. I wish i understond but I don't belive that I ever will.

Anyways.

Im glad that someone out there is reading this. I hope that someone will coment soon. Its annoying how its nearly time to go back to school. I like school but not the leasons. I always get laughed at by the teachers because of my bad spelling. One of them said "Its pachtitic how you spell pachitic" and everyone laughed. Including me, but I was dieing inside. Im going out for the first time in si mounths with my friends on sunday. I'm so stressed about it. I think that I'll just end up not going because I get scared. Thats what I normally do. Another dark grey rainbow today that I had another attack last night and its not getting any but. But the dark grey rainbow does have a silver lining. A new benning tomorrow.

Signing off,

Blink

Hi anyone thats reading

Where to start.

I know were not to start, but were to start.

Im very ill, and no one knows. Its gross so I won't go into it.

Attacks happen, well anytime anywere. But I guess i'll just talk about somthing else.
Im dyslexic. Its hard , in my school especially because its a grammar. They look at your as if you are stupid unless you get above 80% on any test. But im mainly ok with exams, Im not in top set mind you. Just comfately in the middle. There are no boys. And no im not complaining because i want a boyfriend. Im asexual if your asking. Girls are so teidous, they complain at everything and anything. And on a non uniform day unless your wearing  Jack Wills or the lastest holister hoddie. Im not like that, the only designer thing I own is some stuffed Doc Martins. There amazing. As I type this countless red lines are under the words, which I will have to change later. Its like someone should right click me and I'll change into the right person. Because Im diffrent.... In a bad way.

First Post lets hope it sticks

A blank page.

I could put anything here.

I could write about chairs, tables ponies, hair, shampoo, video games, super Mario bro's, flowers, fairy's, tulips, music, lanterns, curtains, trees, plugs , lights, religion, art, cats, fish , dogs, tanks, wood, cake, cups, things that are red, washing, TV, Doctor who,carpets  ,Sherlock homes, windows ,notebooks or even rainbows.

I write about grey rainbows.


Just Another blog about someone who doesn't know how lucky they are, they have clean water, and a warm bed at night (day more in my case). They have pets, good food and 550 channels on their TV talking about their small problems but are huge in their little bubble. I wrote stuff like this for as long i can remember, in notebooks and school jotters. But its time to join this centenary so im putting it online. I went though a bad patch two years ago and I want to write about it here. Hopefully someone out there will care.

Someone who reads about grey rainbows.